Not in a Party Mood

Today the sun is out for the second day in a row.  Spring has been a bit slow this year.  We just attended the graduation celebration of a lovely young woman, at one of our favorite, if not THE favorite, hang outs.  I looked forward to going.  But it soon became clear to me, my heart wasn't in a party mood.  When you are sad, truly sad, it's difficult not to carry that sadness around.  I'm an upbeat person, by nature.  I believe we are responsible for our own moments of happiness.  But every now and then, Life deals a blow that cannot be brushed aside.  You can put on a "happy face" for others and I want to do that.  I don't want to put my sadness on their plate, especially if they are just acquaintances.  I will share when the time is right with a close friend or two.  Sister-in-law knows, but has enough on her own plate.  I walked home from the gathering, in the sun, to the shelter of my cottage, where I will recharge these batteries and try to be of some help to those I love who are in pain.  Is happiness found in helping?  I hope that it is.